Every single day, I find myself locked in a battle—against who I am right now, to become who I truly want to be. And I wish I could tell you that this is an exaggeration, but deep down, I know it’s not. At my core, I know I’m lazy, anxious, afraid, and often caught in the web of fantasies, wishing to be everything without doing anything. It’s embarrassing to admit, even to myself. But,we all have that struggle, don’t we? That quiet, internal battle.

It’s our responsibility, though, to rebel against everything we can’t live with anymore. This rebellion, this fight, is a choice we are all privileged enough to make. And make no mistake, it’s a fight. If I have to run faster in the morning to push through the laziness, lift harder on the days when everything feels slow, work harder when the tasks seem easy—whatever it takes to close the gap between who I am and who I want to be—it’s a small price to pay.

Because the alternative, the cost of becoming what I’m afraid of, is too high. If I keep letting things play out as they are, there will come a time when I’ll have to wake up and face the reality of what I’ve become. But here’s the truth—no one else can carry the burden of that realization or the weight of what could have been. It’s all on us.

And so, I refuse to let myself be born into a life where I never truly lived. I refuse to settle into the person I’m afraid of becoming. We all have this choice, this responsibility to change, and the power to do something about it. The life I want, the person I want to be, is worth every ounce of effort it takes.

Thank you,

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